I'm terrible about blogging often. It's become hard with this pregnancy and keeping up with my son. We've been getting ready for my son's upcoming second birthday and the arrival of my in-laws. We'll have a great time, but it's a bit crazy in the meantime. My poor, amazing husband did most of the work this weekend, trying to get ready while I laid on the couch feeling terrible. (Both physically, and for not having the energy to help him a little more.)
I have to admit, that I'm starting to feel guilty for the changes that will be coming into our home in the next few months. I love my son dearly, and know that I will love any future children the same, but it still makes me sad that our little daily duo is going to be broken up. I love the time that we have together. I am sad that I will not have the same time for him ever again. I know that I need to use up every moment in the coming months so that we can enjoy our time together while it's just us.
A sibling is one of the greatest gifts that you can ever give your child- one that will hopefully last long after you are gone. I understand that, intrinsically, yet there is part of me that wants to hang on to what we have, just a little bit. I feel bad that I will not be able to spend the same quality time with the new baby as I did with our oldest. It's something that I know we will get through but ah- the emotions! I'm sure that the pregnancy hormones are playing a large part in all of it! :) Well, here's to the next several months. May this pregnancy be healthy. May the next months bring amazing times and calmer emotions. May my son be so close with this baby, and hopefully I will be able to give them both what they need to the best of my abilities.
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